Fighting a losing battle...
With all the good things that have happened to me personally I should be feeling great but it's tough when the friends around you are suffering. I've successfully passed the hardest year of the program and I'm loving my clinical placement right now. Everyone says that you're pretty much home free from here on in. The patients and diseases that I've been seeing in the past few weeks are incredible. It's not until you're actually out there that you realize how much you love what you're learning to become. I love this Physio stuff and there's so much more to it than muscles and bones.
But in saying all that, the politics and sadness that this program is bringing to people makes me want to walk away just to make a bold statement. This program here is world known and when I'm done I will get a higher wage simply because the reputation this school gets. But damn they treat their students really poorly and if you make one mistake, there's no mercy.
I have a few friends who unfortunately failed a few exams and are not granted to opportunity to write supplementary exams. Yes I know a few sounds like a lot but keep in mind that we had 14 exams in a span of two weeks. A few, which includes practicals, is not a lot. Some of the reasons for failing the practicals were ridiculous. One examiner said that they didn't think she was encouraging enough and the voice quality was not good. Those are ridiculous reasons to fail someone, especially when it's suppose to be on patient safely and doing the right technique. One person set the wrong ultrasound intensities and they still passed. It's so subjective and sometimes you wonder...
So my friends are in the midst of appeal right now and watching them go through this is the worst thing ever. I've been hanging out with them and trying to study with them but it's so hard because they're in some degree of depression. Your mind can only take so much abuse from people before it gives in and break down.
What bothers me most is how unsupportive most of the staff are. Instead of trying to encourage them and console them, they actually told them that they should just give up on this term and just repeat it again next year. One of my friends actually bought into that and didn't even bother appealing the decision. She had a really good chance of winning the appeal since it was only 2 courses. But after speaking to one of the staff she decided that it would be best to repeat the entire year, not just the second semester. That's the stupidest thing I have ever heard. It made me really sick and it made be cry that she was giving up. At one point I had helped her realize that she didn't want to just give up and actually went to the school to fill out the forms. Stupid people decided to have a xmas party that day when they told students to go in that day to talk about the supplementary exams. No one was there to help her so she gave up, again.
This whole school really pisses me off and I can't understand why they are so heartless. They have no compassion and everyone has become to hate this school. Year after year, they treat students like robots. They throw us in the open deep water and see who can swim back on their own. If you drown, you drown and they don't care. We're simply remaining in this course because we can't afford to walk away and I personally don't have the guts to. Honestly I can't watch any more of my friends go through this. It's too emotional for me. It's worst to watch someone go through it than if it was happening to me. If I had something to walk away to or if I didn't want to be a Physio as much as I do, it would be a loud statement that I would love to make.
But in saying all that, the politics and sadness that this program is bringing to people makes me want to walk away just to make a bold statement. This program here is world known and when I'm done I will get a higher wage simply because the reputation this school gets. But damn they treat their students really poorly and if you make one mistake, there's no mercy.
I have a few friends who unfortunately failed a few exams and are not granted to opportunity to write supplementary exams. Yes I know a few sounds like a lot but keep in mind that we had 14 exams in a span of two weeks. A few, which includes practicals, is not a lot. Some of the reasons for failing the practicals were ridiculous. One examiner said that they didn't think she was encouraging enough and the voice quality was not good. Those are ridiculous reasons to fail someone, especially when it's suppose to be on patient safely and doing the right technique. One person set the wrong ultrasound intensities and they still passed. It's so subjective and sometimes you wonder...
So my friends are in the midst of appeal right now and watching them go through this is the worst thing ever. I've been hanging out with them and trying to study with them but it's so hard because they're in some degree of depression. Your mind can only take so much abuse from people before it gives in and break down.
What bothers me most is how unsupportive most of the staff are. Instead of trying to encourage them and console them, they actually told them that they should just give up on this term and just repeat it again next year. One of my friends actually bought into that and didn't even bother appealing the decision. She had a really good chance of winning the appeal since it was only 2 courses. But after speaking to one of the staff she decided that it would be best to repeat the entire year, not just the second semester. That's the stupidest thing I have ever heard. It made me really sick and it made be cry that she was giving up. At one point I had helped her realize that she didn't want to just give up and actually went to the school to fill out the forms. Stupid people decided to have a xmas party that day when they told students to go in that day to talk about the supplementary exams. No one was there to help her so she gave up, again.
This whole school really pisses me off and I can't understand why they are so heartless. They have no compassion and everyone has become to hate this school. Year after year, they treat students like robots. They throw us in the open deep water and see who can swim back on their own. If you drown, you drown and they don't care. We're simply remaining in this course because we can't afford to walk away and I personally don't have the guts to. Honestly I can't watch any more of my friends go through this. It's too emotional for me. It's worst to watch someone go through it than if it was happening to me. If I had something to walk away to or if I didn't want to be a Physio as much as I do, it would be a loud statement that I would love to make.
posted by Sub29 at 9:32 PM
4 Comments:
Sabrina, as I was reading your post, I couold have sworn that someone from my school was writing it! I know exactly how you feel. We are in very similar professions and You feel great about what you are going to do in the future but sometime the politics of the professiona dn the school can really get you down. We have very simnilar problems here where students feel cast aside by the admin. Many tests are very subjective and depending on what tester you have, you could fail for no good reason. All the Chiros that are out practicing tell us to just try to get through because the profession has so much to offer the patients and we shouldn't let the politics get us down. yet it's hard not to! It is very discouraging.
I think this is a similar experience for everyone in our professions so don't lose heart and keep your eye on the light at the end of the tunnel!
love,
Shima
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Hey Sabrina! It's nice to know that if you and your friend Shima make it in your politics-oriented professions, there will be some good people in there to counteract the 'bad'.
Keep working and it will do more good than walking away. Your voice is much more likely to be heard if you have completed the work. They will not attribute your dissatisfaction to personal failure.
I never knew you were such a compassionate person. Like, you'll always be the baseball mom to me, but your entry was so raw on the emotions - very true, very legit.
But cheer up, friend! There will be brighter days ahead. And you will be making the good days GOOD for those around you, I'm sure!
Lea.
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